Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
school has been making me sad. esp this week the worse week B ever ): but this emo week is coming to an end hopefully this remains the worst week ever meaning the rest wld be better, thank God for my classmates and for happypill who went through w me heheh they make the sad JC life much more bearable (:
oh dwi left for Vancouver on thurs SO SAD I MISS HER ALR D: actually i miss all my girls and secondary sch life (sorry im still gg through part of emo week lol)
Adiv havent been gg that well also heh and seeing the seniors getting injured was woah O:/ ): plus the first ball i ever hit one court was ...... i confirm my soft spot for mass-crying sessions again hehh this reminds me that seniors are gg to step down after Adiv which is 2 more matches to go ohman so saddddd.
right i should stop it, blog should be for happy stuff emo week im gg to be done with you! so goodbye and dont see you agn! and May please be good (:
bye world, nxt post will be w pictures on a lighter note (:
