Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
hi world. i know i havent been blogging. my life as a jc kia has been like... doesnt sound so bad when i say it out leh but it just feelssssssssssssss idk how to say hahah life seems to be like back to O's eh (look at nah and bird HAHAH)
classmates are alright, most of them. oh and i think im most prolly gg to join floorball and suhui is joining w meeeee (: hehe feels exciting, hope that the excitement doesnt die down uh. ohya and i've got an EC eh and i think i'll get to know her soooon ^^ HAHAHHA.
grace and eunice say i look sad and have been trying to psycho me into gg poly LOLLL.
blah feeling a littllllleeeeee sentimental after looking at old pics blahhhhhh BYEBYE WORLD. im gg to do work and be a gd jc kia ):
