Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
i've been staring at this space for a while, intending to blog but dont know what to write.
holidays have been zooom and it's 2010 alr O: life after O's has been slack. (from after 13 nov) packed like mad till the genting trip ended.
firstly (15 &16 of nov) was the shoping for prom(urghhh) went out w bian and kun ^^. though shopping for prom was so sian but going out w these 2 was :D enough of offset the sian-ness hehe. thanks to them i managed to find a dress, okay move on
then prom. (17 nov) nothging much uh, i was still happily online-ing till like 6 plus before sis sorta sent me to dwi's place then we cabbed to the copthrone hotel. we were all late so had to stand outside for a while and when we enterred it was like HMMM. HAHHA okay everyone was like staring (probably cause we couldnt find seats where all of us could sit tgt so we kept standing) oh and everyone dressed like wow. the programme was kinda....boring? but the food rocks manzsx ^^ the after part was more fun, we went around taking pictures and i finally understand what it means by heels do kill (i did feel slightly tall-er though ^^ ). after a while, we literally sat at anywhere we could find (tables chairs etc). soon we left the hotel and cabbed back to dwi's house. slippers nvr felt so comfortable ^^. all of us squeezed in the room w like 6 on the bed and the rest on the mattress on the floor. took some pictures also before washing up and changing back to the normal clothing. after supper (i helped in the cooking, so prouda myself) we went back to the room and just crapped till we fell asleep and shared funny stories when we woke up. like the farting and those weird sleeping positions. had some bfast before leaving dwi's house.
IKEA meatball-ed with the expanded clique (18 nov). had been hearing so much about it and finally we went to taste it :D. bird and me bus-ed then traing to tamp to meet the rest w all of our prom stuff lolll. love the meatballs and chicken wingsss :D walked around ikea after that. took pictures toooo. after that then bus-ed back to yishun and went to ycg.
Class chalet (19 &20 nov) met us with class clique and bus-ed to chalett. sorta met up with the rest of the peopel to have dinner at kfc (whooooo zingerrr :D) . then walked around the mall and ended in the arcadeeeee. dwi and me wanted to play pool but didnt cause no spare table and it was kinda ex. fine so went on with arcade. half the class was like looking at eddie play the kiap kiap toy thing. all those surrounding the machine screamed when eddie finally got it. they spent dont know how much on it ehh. after that we went to buy midnight movie tickets, the christmas carol. then walked back to the chalet w the guys leading us and they said like walk a while reach already. all liesssssss. so far in loh. was like having a concert w the girls being high and sang our way to the chalett. HAHA. put down our barangs and went to explore the chalet and then went out, back to the mall again for tha movieeee. Christmas Carol was kinda cool though no cute guys (even in animations cant they put a cute guy in it huhhhhh), but it sorta gave me the christmas moood.....for a while. after movie we went to walk around and take pictures againnn. and the girls were so excited after finding the stimulator thing. soon we went back to the chalet againnnn. (singing all the way also) HAHA. ohoh P and S sent us to the mall for the movie eh so sweeeet then they went back while we movie-d. at the chalet we sang songs (againnnnn) in the room w P and S as musicians HAHA. chatted/gossiped for a longgg while hehe. then went to the living room to watch people play mj. later more people came and it was funnny/entertaining watching them play. esp deva couldnt read the wan-family so he had to ask and we would all know his tiles HAHAH. intended to go out for breakfast w as a class thing. but ended up sitting at the bball court outside the chalet and continued talking again. AND THEN THE FUNNY BIRD THING HAPPENEDDDD HAHAH. okay chillllll. cnt rmb waht happend after that but i only rmb bus-ing to amk then to church w birddddd.
INDO TRIP :D (22-28 nov) 22) went for morning serv w mama then dad came and drove us to airporttttt (: met up with amelia dwi and ky. was hesitating to buy a gift for dwi anot cause we going to stay at her house so supposed to get like a house gift or sth uh. in the end amelia's mama and my mama went to buy indo kuey (yes we were going to indo) and we took turns to carry it till we reached there. anwwww, the 4 of us went to take planeeeeee (: cause of the air pressure thing that will disturb the ear when the plane is taking off, i planned to sleep before takeoff and probably wake up when we reach or at least in midair. so i went to sleeeeeep BUT when i woke up, the.plane.was.just.about.to.take.off. zzzzzz. then the girls told me that the flight was delayeddd. TSK. tried sleeping again (and i cnt rmb what happened). after we landed we went to meet dwi's mama and then took dwi's papa car back to her houseee. even dwi's car is cool eh. have like fridge and telephone inside one ehhh. oh and dwi papa drives like really fast. hhaha. reached dwi's HUGE HOUSE but it still looks small compare to her neighbours eh. her neighbours one like istanaaaa sioll. anw her house is like 2-story high and has 4 cars and 2 motorcycles parked inside her house and her living room is aosngfq big with that super comfy sofa, sitting on it is like instantly will be goneeeee. so we went up to dwi's room to put our stuff and dwi has a queen sized bed just like birdddy. went down to wait for nehneh to comeee and we finished 2 containers of keropok (!!!). anw after neh came we went to the mallll, dwi's cousin drove us theree. ohman indo food is like ^^ ehhhhh. ate dinner there and shopped also. then went back to dwi's house and sleptttt on her big bed :D
(to be continued... havent had sucha long post in a long timee. (: )
