Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
hihiiii (: just in case you still dont know, im in NYJC. neh and zxk are in ny toooo :D and im in Yancey9 , different from all of themmmm ):
listened to subj talks, (im intending to take BCME h2s anw) played some icebreaker games, learnt mass dance (assumingly), walked around the school. SO TIRING EH SOMEHOW. havent been up for so long in a longggg time ah maybe lol and today i was up before the sun eh zzz. oh i made friends also ah but not those stick tgt kind, ohwellll.
tmr's sentosaaa then go straight to church ah (SOUNDS TIRING ALSO EH HOW)
oh and bb is kinda school-unfriendly ah abit hard to type and (act) listen to other people talk. fineeeee. HAHHA
aiya talking nonsense alr, life's tiring. ( HAHHA omgosh and it's just orientation loll)
