Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
hello all fellow kids who hafta wear uniform to school for that last time tmr, all the best ! O:
i've been quite chill about the results being released tmr, (by puttign them at the back of my mind and not thinking about it O: ) HAHAH but after steamboat just now (WHOO STEAMBOAT ^^), dont know whyyyyyyyyy, we came to that topic (and it was pulled from the back of the head till it's in my face) and thennnn i started thinkinggggggg..
i've been like taking like the results kinda for granted uh. everyone's been saying that O's are easy/results are like half your prelim scores. oh andddd dont know whooooo say i smart kid ah (and spread it among the Ts) so complacent ah, as if single digit's easy peasyyy.
oh then just now i thoughttt, where the single digit is coming from, i meannnnn, i didnt study much, flipped most of the way (if i even finished the textbk) oh and for like eng oral, me screwed up manzsxzx ): kanchiong and stuff ah, plus first one to go. so if my eng is able to get an A, it's all God luh O:
and i forgot for which paper ah, i was writing halfwayyyyy, then my contacts dropped out, so i attempted to put it back w one hand and so the other hand can continue writinggg. it should be pretty amusing ah, since the invigilator in front of me kept staring HAHAH
and also, i kinda screwed up chinese writing, sorta out of point plus repeating whatever i've said. so ya /:
did i mention that i didnt exactly complete my sbqs for both ss and hist. /: anddd evt the peeps beside me discuss their answers (though i pretend/try not to hear) most of them seem to be wrongggg/unfamiliar //:
anw the top few examples are like those that i can suddenly think of one uh. and yahhh, by seeing this uh, i was wondering whereeeeee the single digit is going to come from O: so i have valid reasons for feeling so /: for results tmr eh.
(acutally thought process was like more complicated but dont know why evt see this space, the mind will blankkkk) oh anw im meeting the girls for movieeee tmr before going to get results /: havent planned howww to open the results slip yet. HA. mental block now byezsx.
OH and the point of this post is that if i manage to get like good results, it's all God's grace and mercyyy! (:
