Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
i am blardy pekchek w myself and even 38 said i was stupid ( which i somehow agree)
the mama ask me make police report but idk where/when i lost it . how to report.
the telephone operater feeling is back.
i doubt i will be going to choir concert now.
which is zzz cause i was kinda looking forward to it.
(at least i wont see _) but i will miss out gd show too . AYA.
aye. now even looking at __ (not porn) doesnt make me feel anything but my heart sinking even more ._.
stop thinking.it wont make a difference
i know this is sucha boring post. but. BLAHHHHH. nxt time then funny one. ;]
HAPPY BDAY NEHNEH :D
more on bian's blog. or wait lo. i will post again. (maybe you shall see my (late) adopted bird) i know i havent been replying to tags but i got read ;D anw i salute my grandmama for her courage. even though idk what happened in the end.
more on bian's blog. or wait lo. i will post again. (maybe you shall see my (late) adopted bird)