Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
today was fine. chinese lesson was better. did lit for 1.15hr starting from aft sch. hahs. wrote two and one tenth pages. woohoo. though it contained crap. ohwell. betta then nth. ohya. i wanna thank ahbian and nut for waiting and ahlin for helping me put locker =D. went tpy. ahbian gave me present. =D. yay. thankyouvery much yea. 1st present. :D. i forgot that tml is my bday till she reminded me. the design behind is nice =D. i shall take pic of it and post it. using my sis's phone. ._. or imaybe i shall wear it tml. she bought XS. like wow. lets hope it fits =DD. hahs. went home then.
im waiting for ahbian to send me the pics so i can post em. haaahs. im bored at staring at the wordddds. this week alot people fall sick. hahs. from phone spoil then now people sick. ohya, my maid is going back for a week ): i shall try to survive. church later.
