Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
went kbox yest. ngshhhh. was late for freaking 35 mins. starving all of us. reached and had pizzahut for lunch. then went up. looked at people iceskating. funny when people fall X: then went to kbox. went at 2.30. singsingsingstarestaestaresiaosiaosiao. ngshhhhhh knew like almost all the songs. ahbian was the toilet attender xD many SHE and jaychou songs. stayed all tha way til 7 then leave. hahs. then dad sent them all home. and ngshhhhh. so much for "wo baba pengyou de che" like LOL. since when my dad knew yours. finished sending them at 8+ then went to chongpang to eat.
today. councillors dont have lessons. suck lo. i want alos X: walked 3rounds the school around the school and completed at lik 26 mins. xD. suhui and xinlin ps us. one dam fast the other one skip one round. then was science. did practical. first time in 2 years did till so "involved" instead of stoning. that chaihao kept playing with that whatever thing that looks alot like a condom. and mrsWong had to explain that condoms were made of rubber;latex. and that was made of plastic and was porus. xD.i wonder how is she going to teach chapter 6&7 practical -.- released late. went to change then went for 10min recess. got back holiday hw. sucked. as usual. X: had lessons for half an hour befoe leaving with a big wide smile on my face. lols. went to withdaw key. and darn the soundboard. make the wireless mikes unusable. good thing jialin was there. and in ther end we had 3 seniors helping xP. cant really imagine nxt year, w/o them. tsk. sounds mushy -.- LOL. had to use wire mikes then. carry so many things down. set up. loads of feedback and many other sounds that were not supposed to be there. soon people came. they had chairs. boooos. i miss sitting down w/o stress and watching people performing. uppersec was noisyyyy~ X: backstage is still freaking hot -.- so came down to slack till it was about to start. clement pei-ed me backstage. hahs. being alone backstage is so not fun -.-. i still think speeches are so and so boring. nearly fall aslp X: packed up stuff. went back class and choinged geog. thanks for waiting ar. LOL. ate at sumohse. v long nv eat there le. went np macs to meet them. they kept digressing from the topic. decided on sth soon then went home. saw agnes. like so guai suddenly ar. xD.
im so and so broke. that bitch's fur is like everywhere. i dont want ngshhh's virus anymore. instead i hope she gets the virus doubly and help me do my hw (: SMART. someday i will see kunyan play match, somehow. i want my hw to disappear. i dont want to do book review. -.- dont see how it can help me. i wanna dream when i sleep. and see those people that i dont get to see that often in real life (: my phone's hospital suck. it just came out on sun. and till now it hung lie more then 5 times. damn it. I WANT NEED A NEW PHONE.
