Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
sch was as usual. morn duty. today's boring. aft sch went to eat with ky, sawatika and grace. bought bbletea. theauntiewasslowandimpositivethatsheisansuntie. went to find place to eat. talktalktalk. and a cat scared sawatika. xD. grace shared lamejokes. ky and i laughed at them. hahs. then went back to sch. was late for the meeting. well they met at 1.15 luh. sch dismisses at 12.40 [ithink] dont care luh. then sawatika and grace went for module. so left with me to entertain ky. went up to the control room. did free labour. ky didnt even get a chance to go in luh -.- carried the speaker down. lift-ed. then moved to whr the rest of the equiptment was. mrLim wanted to talk to us. had to ps ky. sry ah. zzz. well. i think.... i support jialin. [like duh -.-] then did the system. went up to carry two more types of speakers. we really need juniors sia. tried to finish. moved the stuff back up. tralala happened. left at 5. went to court and wanted to say bb and sry one. but ky busy arh. stare and stone for a while. meantime reg was trying very hard to drink the milo xD. then went home. the sis just jumped on me while i was lying on the sofa. tskk. reason? she wants to snatch my pillow -.- and she pushed me off the sofa. zzz -.-
met wonglong b4 going church. i brought like one big bag. and she brought an orange shirt. like wow. nvm she helped me carry the sleeping bag. ((: church bus-ed. then went up. sat in front. and the camera kept coming when i was msging/eating. then i had to stop. tsk. lols. but i listened still. supervision, FAT. example, assignment etc.
brought down our bagsss. then went to find food. buy liao then went back to church. listened to circlecicledotdot. it was one ear in and another out. i was fadai-ing, not enjoying pls. tskkkk. then it was the sleepover. brought our stuff up again. looked at them play volleyball IN the providence. lols. used a soft ball [smallsized gym ball] hahs. and it was like whoever hit the ball to the ceiling or any instrments, will minus one point and add one to the oppenent. lols. it was like OHHHHHHHHHHHH wheneve those accidents happened. once theball hit the spotlights so hard that the dust on it came down and it was like shaking. LOL. regD won =D. then went to b1. played poison ball. 1st set was super embarrassing + unglam. i fell down and got hit by the balls 3 times b4 i was out -.- blablabla. the neighbours complained and the police came. say we too noisy. so we cld like clapp or cheer when someone wins. so xinku -.- region D won =D. i heard the soccer was regA win. heard only la. then had supper. rotiprata. ive concluded that i dont like egg pratas. then went upstirs to stone. i so like the toilet's hand dryer =DD. went up. played some games. prayed. slept at 4-5+ woke at 6.30. packed and went down. prayer was tough. cos pray need to bow head. so had to try very hard not to fall aslp and try to listen. esp for the amen part. aft that was beakfast then went home at 7+ reached home at 8.15. went in, take out shoe, put down bag. and onto the sofa. woke at like 9.25? lateee.. my fault. then went out. den stomachache -.- so even later. cabbed down. CANVAS ART. and ohya. our whole canvas art team stayed over for the sleepover. lawl. did the painting. was quite fun. we had 4hrs to do. finished it at around 2 hrs? ate burger provided for lunch. touch up. then slacked. christine was funnnnyyyy. she sat on paint. red one in fact. LOL. so it was like ... then she requested for a painting of lips on it. LMAO. so we went to her back, and xuan and nic painted. ROFLOL. we were xDD all the way. kept asking her to stick out her butt. xD. and the videoguy, [idontknowhisname] kept pointing his videocam at us. xD. dam funny, okay. nvm. aft that went home at 2 plus. reached at 3 going 4. slept all the way till 7+. so didnt go for the musical rehersal. dad was suddenly nice. he bought curryfishhead, stingray and frog meat. (((((: nice. all spicy though. then watch the 7.30 show. awwwwww. the xiaolongnu and yangguo. okay. nvmmm.
tml is bapitsm day. >.< i tried msging the people but they didnt reply. 2.4 is on monday. suck. my shoulder muscle hurts. boos. im supposed to be sleeping soundly in bed now. its passed my bedtime xD
you just made it sian-er there goes the little respect i had for you. i dont see if you dont give it to us, why must we give it to you? if you are that good, get it done yourself, no point talking. i know im not supp to write this. but i dont care.
