Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
sat. went out. knew we were meeting at 11.55 when we met at 12. LOL. kept on walking aound aimlessly. hahas. amk hub 1st. saw cedric and joel? they didnt see me. ohwell. those tall things were scary. we were nice to entertain the icecream man. bought the putincoinsthenturn toy from that machine. there were 3 people looking at the same machine. ky just went up, put in coins then turn. out came the geen one. the 3 of them were like o.o at us. only one more left, so i went to the other machine. got the green one too. we were like LOL. then walked past. i think we were sickening. ky contributed 60% and the rest was mine xD. then went to the library to open. ky was having 2nd childhood and i was having deprived childhood. lols. fixed the thing. the frog is so cute. i shall post ky's pic since she posted mine. then went for wedding dinner.
i think he's supp to be my cousin. he's my grandma's sister's grandson. so ya. another of my generation getting married. makes me think of when is my sister getting marred :X. didnt recognise many of the people there. and i was the only kid at the table since the sis went to the zoo -.- i had loads of privilages xD. had sharks fin. it was like the only nice one. and i managed to have 2 bowls since i was the kid xD. rest was okayokay.
today. wanted to go out at 9.30 need to reach by 10. i've got it planned. 5mins walk to mrt=935. 5mins wait for train=940 5mins to go yishun=945. then take bus there. see. plenty of time. then the mum said need to take passport photo. distrupted my whole "arangement of time" the picture look dam kuku. imagine me w/o specs and fringe on top of eyebrows. okay. maybe dont imagine. was about 15 mins late X;. eant the thoery of the stuffs. seriously, i think i learnt more stuff about sound in that 30 mins than 1.5 years in infocomm. waited for kristy aft church. im not scary today. juat not that interested in entertaining people (: went mac. then went for the dog training again. went gandma hse then home.
the windchime is noisy. i should be in bed now, dreaming. i've school tml. xinlin : how to be not shy? >.< ky : too cute till scary liao X:. my bookreview's not done yet. kristy if you are see-ing this then tag. ((: i dont know which phone to buy and the dad is nagging me to buy new phone. like WOW. hehes.
