Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
sat. went for outreach. sakaesushi-ed. then rehersaled.
sun. churched. aunt,cousin, ex-uncle came too. he was in evangel loong loooong ago. hows cool is that. hahs. then sakaesushi-ed again. xD went to ngSHHH's hse. watched the i-cnt-rmb-the-name movie. then 5 plus went back. rehersal-ed. movie-ed. i was a bad kid that day -.-
mon. assembly in hall. the china people were bigbutt-ed people. tskk. made us stand to wait for them so freaking long -.- lit was kinda fun for the poem part. but. still. i dont like lit. had test for history. crapped, repeated the crap again. whole paper was crap. hahs. that's what hist is for. at least for me -.- cca. reg, clement,kangheng didnt come. sole sec2 pa-er. tsk. did video. it. was. darn. funny. should put it up xD. the instructer told/taught us so much crap luh. like who doesnt know you need the batt and where's the record and pause button -.- rehersal-ed
tues. pe was slack. napfa was postponed due to the outside visitors =D. and i wld still be counted as 13 then xP. sbj and inclined suck ._. did experiment on quail egg. i think its cool. it sort of remove the egg's shell. and the chaihao used two fingers and burst it -.- the insides spill out and hit joyce. LOL. had free period for eng x) lifescience-ed. boringggg. ahlin waited for us. which means 2.5 hrs. hahs. smiles yea (: rehesal-ed at night.
wed. my only sorta lesson for geog so far. hopefully i'll do well man. lifescience-ed. teacher was such a cheater. what kinda aircon period luh. but it was the only fun period. government was so hard tuh do . government, doctors, public, media. if i had a choice, i wld pick patient -.- it was okay luh. home then g12 then rehersal-ed.
thurs. aft sch zuxian, zuxianpong and nut came my hse. zuxian wanted to see the bitch, but was afraid of it -.- LOL. nut screamed like dont know what. miko tried running away. she squeezed through the gate and ran out. they went BAOZHEN!. okay. now i think the whole block knows my name -.- i was like sleeping, woke up. open the door. went chasing it bare footed -.- then they left. tried to sleep again. then the door bell and telephone kept ranging. zzz. need to walk there and walk back. rehersal-ed at night. i wonder how he knows. i reckon he read or knew by her blog o.0 but.. oh nvm.
fri. didnt do duty cause it was 7.15 already. :D phylis is funny please. with her " ta hen piaoliang. zhen de hen piaoliang" xD [she is pretty. seriouslly.] ngSHH have been singing alot ever since the kbox. ._. saw a real goats heart and liver. gross. the blood was like dipping down the heart when she took it up. and there were these holes- veins and arteries. and slits by the side of the heat. okayy. i think its gross enough. stop here. music test. msLau practically gave all the ans. pastamania-ed. was listening to stories on hospitals experience. saw pri sch friends. walked arnd then went home.went to chuch to prepare. didnt win though. regCwon. learned many things though. throughout this week. main reason why i didnt blog. then ate at 925. many people went there too. bussed home then.
not going to outreach today. im going to tuition soon. sad. i going to let nature take its course . hahs. hist and math test next week. sian.
