Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
last min know that have duty. so was late [not much diff anw if i knew or didnt.] many people up there. ganghao looked ad if he was going to die any moment pls. good thing had duty. todat had 2 speech. by SJAB and NCC. so at least upstairs have aircon and can fidget. not forgetting that can go into the room and sit if my legs felt tired (: mass workout. kept staring at people. hahas. didnt do stupid stuff downstairs. (x starestarelooklookdreamdream. hehes.
then was sci. did digestive system again. hungry topic. though it was sort of digusting. and having to rmb de names and evt. ohwell.
den had music. going to have theory exam. boooos. my theory suck pls. saddd. hand in book. was told that we will be having competition with other classes. on singing and performing. like omgosh. it will be like .. gay?. lols. i dont mind for my own entertainment. but. ohwell. den see how bahs.
aft sch went to subway. cos cdancers need to be back at 12.[ so early la] and i need to be back by 2. eat liao den stroll arnd for a while. went j8 stroll then took train back to AMK. went back to sch. up to class then realised that its out of bounds? so went down to ask how. den realise that is 2 start [ it was 1.50 then] den went up with reg. thanks for pei-ing me (: went down. den went opp to buy drink. thanks for pei-ing me again. ((: went back to hall. slackslackslack. im a pro slacker. and see-ing people psp, makes me feel guilty of mine rotting at home. was eating honey stick.
mrsWong : come over. [i went over] mrsW : u think its very nice for u to be putting something sticking out of ur mouth when there are so many guests. and u are a girl. cbz : okay lahhhhh. i try to finish. mrsW : quickly finish. [trying to squeeze the honey out, and it was dam sweet. she was using her im-serious tone.] slacked and crapped with steph and loopeng.
went down the line with reg trying to recognise people. lols. she is cock-eyed. hahs. i saw gerl. still nvr change :X. ber : i dont have her photo. sad. hahs. xP soon went up.
backstage is so warm please. ohya, i just realised mrNeo's importance. was waiting for him to come so can ask him Qs. lols. and he kept going " you are too nervous" hahas. like who wasnt pls. and for once i sorta think he was nice o.0 :X. jialin and anngie sat with me. had alot more anquan gan. -.- [if anything corked up, i wont be so helpless -.-] ag and me sat on chairs while jl sat on de floor in front of me. she kept the food and stuff under my chair. it feels super werid if someone keeps reaching under ur chair to put and take things please. tired so didnt entertain jl. so she kept self entertaining and kajiao-ing. mrsChua kept "shhhh" -ing us. :X. and she was wearing sexy please ;XX. and naf : thanks ar. but next time wait till the impt part then call me to wake please. tyvm.
started taking pics. not of us but of the event. jl influenced me. so i took pics of the trophies. [ it was almost the only thing i could see] then i wanted to take people sitting outside. since jl was more on the outside so she helped.[btw it all happened during mrsPoh's speech] she put out her hand with de noob phone and took. like LOL. she was like " ru guo wo bei zhao wo men jiu can le." [if we get caught, we'll be in trouble.] so ya. if during the 1/2hr principal speech, u see a v3 popping out from the left curtain, you are not hallucinating. xP [tchers pls do not know what happened -.-]
aft mrsP's speech then was de GOH's could'nt hear clearly. so the only thing i heard was something about ducks? o.0 soon then was prize giving. took more random pictures.
aft all the prizegiving, the concert began [like wow i didnt sleep. must be bcause of the photos xD] everything went fine. took a few pictures for each. i still remember reg telling me that the second song the choir sang was sth about the earth dying. and mrs A wanted them to smile. like LOL. and our choir is great man. great lullaby singers (: never fail to make my hair stand and feel sleepy .[its not an insult] even during rehersals. hahas. and ohya. a guy stnding near me, arnd the second row, he was sweating like the tap. LOL.[backstage is in need of more aircons] chinese dance was funny. there was supp to be a smoky effect. so there was a lot of smoke. as the smoke was released, the cdancers moved from their position and tried to flap the smoke away. and when the curtains opened, they just act naturally back into their beginning position.[ those who know their 1st pose sould be able to picture the image]. so funny please. xD. once i tried to take pic of ahlin when they were doing the 3-person thing. so i prepared my phone, going to take, then her mummy/daddy suddenly moved in and scared me so the image was blur. like really is shock lo. >.<. i can't remember their last pose. so i just looked out for them doing a freeze. so if they stop moving for about 2secs, i'll close. and they had a 2sec+ pause. so naturally i preesed the " close" button. then jl went : " nononono. haven't finish yet?!" [i quickly opened a little bit then stop so it wont be so obvious.] then when the real last pose came than jl told me to close. seeee. the anquangan was needed. xP. mdance. de guys were sary with their sticks as usual. and the guys as usual sticked their stick behind the curtains. and for band, mama wasnt there. so there was a gap. [ get well soon yepp ((:] curtain call was so funny please. my side was ag, me and jl. we were preparing to go out. cnt hear her call us so didnt go out. but ag sort of heard. so she wanted to go out. but i didnt hear so i tried to hold her back, so she went front and bak. and it happened for like 3 times.xD. looked so funny can. in the end went out for anderson cheer. ended pretty early. 7.10.
teachers said it was successful (((((: took pictures of them leaving as well. packed up. then was 7.40. took pictures. then went down. waited for ahlin they all to leave for yishun tgt. 8pm. crossed the road. peishi andd joann was like saying i so dark later the vehicles cant see me and just bang. and i still wear black and carry black bag. so i said that maybe thay will see my shoes than think why they moving by themselves and stop the vehicle. like ROFLOL. trained and bused. reached church at 8.40pm. was altercall. so waited outside. ber, ahma they came out and forced me to go in. went in sit down then was the announcements and offering liaos. so v fast then over le.
went downstairs. soon ber left. i wanted to say bye, so shouted BERTRICE. and i do have a loud voice right? but she didnt hear.l joey heard and laughed. so i shouted BERTRRICE TIONG again. again she didnt hear. zzz.i think im like invisible cause i camoflouge with the background so she cant see, thus ignored me. okay nvm. went fellowship at KFC. felt invisible again -.-. i will be like talking halfway then jinlong or someone will cut in, breaking my sentence. and i will be like zzzz and shut up. hahs. grace realised. so she was like "jinlong..." then jinlong will turn over see-ing my zzz face. than will let me continue. and jinlong was like sitting infront of me. rwar. den soon when i sudd shut up then she will know. lols. was like talking about the baptisim. it come with a open-ended form. lols. sth like eng+ maths paper. answer eng using maths style. LOL. cabbed home soon. will load the pics some other time cause i dono how to load using v3. shall borrow from xuan some other day to load into laptop,.
tomorrow having finals. going for ytss carnival before that. thanks jinlong for tickets (: i shall try to b guaii like by zuxian.
