Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
had lit today. lit sucked as usual. 45 min paper. did wrong format and restarted it with 15 min left. made me dam depressed. hehh. and u people can imagine how my words looked like. doing halfway sudd thought about oracy. which made me even more depressed.
had oacy frm 9.30. did for 2 hs la. tskk. didnt prepare for it. but it came out still ok. was talking about inconsiderate people. okkk.fineeee. i was talking about myself >.< den went to khatib. ate at coffeeshop cause we were really sick of macs. den went bak to macs-.- studyyy. didnt bing my bk -.- so read de notes. looked at de red and oh so prominent poster, which encouraged me to sleep. cos not supp to study frm 12-2. and it was 12 sharp -.- so slept for half an hour. den woke up with both of my hands numb.-.- cos i was lying on them. hehhs. den leaned bak to stretch. and could see other tables. ... we were discussing on how depressed we were. i was super depressed cos, 1) my lit sucked 2) speech day is coming and de rehersals. hais. 3) im in maths group one. which meant handing in of de maths file on mon. and which i have 19+ tbw not done. 4) sports carnival is nxt fri and we haven't do de flag yet . etc. seeee. i am super depressed. and ahlin is worse. hahas. being de CME rep. was laughing very loudly there, depressed people ae generally siao. xD
den left for home soon. ans dat siao peishi said that she wanna go my hse den take taxi back tskkk. too much money dono how to spend. so she came and she used de com while i use de laptop. played audi. like 12349237498 yrs nv play le. so sucked. haas. tried idk how many times and i passed licence. lols. lvl 11. -.-.
tml last paper. and bz haven studied yet. tskkk. cnt find dat dumb book wish me good luck people~ xD
