Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
MARCH HOLIS ARE ENDING SOON. boos. so much hw and project. everyone so busy. i wan kaikai de l0hs. only today den a little bit of kaikai nia.
went out to do hw. met xl at 11++. supp to meet them at 10.45 at AMK de. but pei dint wake up. she was supp to morn call mi. so i also never wake up. until xL called my house. ate at subway. finished de hw i intended to do dere xD. b4 pei and ahbian even came lols. so i finished my chi. {hopefully my taima did for me xD} and e10 + heymath. and e11 too. and Q1a of e12 =D. hist, lit and eng not yet. don rrly intend to do. =X. went to walk walk and snaking soon. cos MENTAL BLOCK =/. saw ky. She looked like sec1 again xD. took neos. looked retarded. cause don’t know why i cant smile =/. den aft went to lib to borrow books. thanx to mama and aunty who told mi wad de books were on de bk list =DD. den aft borrowing book den we went kathib. was walking towards de traffic light to go to de passarmalam. peishi sudd say wad yuchiham. and wif de stupid head movement. lols. was supp to be yuchitang {sharkfinsoup} . laughed all de way dere can xDD. den reached liaos de bought de "yuchiham" and walked all de wae to de open air place. err. near Gary’s house and near de bubbletea shop.. finished liaos den went back there to find food. bought chicken i don’t know wad. den went to see people play basketball. lols. see awhile den went to yishun. pei ahbian wait for bus den went off with my cousin. im now at her house lahs. gtg . =D
