Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
CNY~ was fun la. seeing my couz and nieces/nephews. play cards,watched movies. tym pass fast when u are habin fun><. won bout $10+ over de 3 days. lols.
fri. went to sch, did de usual things. except dat hab extra alot tests and hw =/ went to tuition . new tcher agn. mr lau. tink i lyk idiot or wad sia. ask those stupid Q den say i very impatient =.-/ ohwell.its true aniwae. im impatient + hot tempered. hahas.den went to makan wib mum den went to church. was yellowren concert. was niceeeeeee=DD hahas.
sat. woke up at 8 wors. lols.dono y so early oso. wake le den play com a while and do hw oso. do till 2 plus sia. den went to church. juz nice to take church bus. played. xuan caught 3 balls sia. lols. take bak last wk de liaos. so we are 3rd la. poison ball won oso =) lols. den went off. on de bus to yishun was listening to songs loh. shi men de lohs >.< den got off at yishun. was late for rehersal. bo bian. earliest is liddat liaos. lols. den kind mr kin offered to treat taxi dere xD. so long pang los. hahas. den reached jess hse at 7 ++ started when we reached. lols. den practise a while. christine came wib iris lata. she helped out la. eating while helping though. BIG distration >.< ohwell. managed to finalise evt xD wearing all de weird stuff though. lols. last yr of rzone liao. nvm lahs. went for late dinner/supper wif dex and clar at de dwnstairs coffeeshop. 9 + liaos sia. dam smelly + tired + hungry = pathetic >.< clar dint eat. so waited for dex food den eat tgt lohs. his took loooonnng. so clar and i bought drinks. i treated mr kin bak =] don say i qifu xD. den intended to go and pei dem wait for bus den take taxi hm de. budden dey say wan walk. sooo, pei dem walk lohs. lol. same as walk to church la. walked slowly cos juz makan. still had stiches though.><. both of dem toking on the phone while walkin -.-/ dex was tokin to s2. so kajiao-ed her. lols. bu kui shi s2 xDD. so hao sua. den walked dem to de church busstop den de bus juz nice came. so bb to dem and took bus bak. reach mrt staion le, den juz took mrt home lohs.
