Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
woken up by de noisy ncc people i supp, changed and went down for breakfast. hab mi fen. poor ncc and npcc people could only hab bread. and de usen very sparingly kaya and jam. lols. de food were nice esp compared wif theirs. did some last min editting aft brkfast. finished it. den went off de de UN-amazing race. okokes. dowanna elaborate too much. summarize. de vivo security sux.. de seniors can be very mean at tyms. CANDY FROM CANDY EMPRE CAN MAKE PEOPLE HAB SUGAR RUSH/ HIGH. augustine is cute and tells loadsa lame jokes when he is high. garnesh cant stand us when we are high xD
anw. we are supp to look aft de egg la. which daryn named it garnEGG. he killed it la. in de middle of suntec >.< and we had to clear it. and there are mani kind people in suntec! xD we dint rrly clear mani stations la. but we got mani scavenger stuff.
our video won. and we took grp photos. ate dinner at subway. wib rebecca and steph carrying 2 big baggs. den went hm tgt. chatted. missed de camp la. although nth much. 2 days 1 nyte nia. nxt tym mus make it longer =D
played audi wib gary when i reached hm. lols. lvl 5 stiffy. and STUPID AHBIAN MADE MI LOSE TO HIM. rwarrrr.
