Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
last wed was bian tai los. although dint ask us to run arnd de field, but almoz de same. i tink worse bahs. cos nid to run around + up and down. and lyk it was not bad enuff, some of de seniors gave out wrong clues. in short, it was lyk amazing race but mini version and is arnd de sch. which is torture for a non-exercising gal lyk mi. tsktsk. till now still aching here aching dere. last tym worse ba. even climb stairs oso jialat.
fri
went to sch. dint go for cca. thank god i dint. went home. den prepared le den go tuition. mental block sia. cos aft hab maths test wich was dam diff. make mi so "tramatised" till, i do 10+4 =12. pathetic lohs. so did de paper dam slowly, cnt finish den had to bring home to do. den went to mit cass. gd la she. made mi wati for her for half an hr. rwarrrrr. nvm. saw ahma. she ask cass to hlp her buy food while she go hm. den mit her in church. LOL.i was lyk. cass,u gd ar. ahma betta sia. lolls. in de end hab buy lahs. aft buying, headed to church. while walkin to de interchng, wendy called to ask cass to hlp her buy food. buy chicken rice from de coffee shop nearby. so went lo. took de bus. saw jas they all on de bus. jas noe we wanted to go coffee shop so ask mi hlp her buy drink 1st. cass was lyk saying dat we were de food-buyers/delieverers for de day. alighted at de stop aft church. bought de food den delievered it to church. left de food dere le den went up to put our bags. realised dat dint bring ahma de food up. so sort of quikly went down to take la. cass was manmanlai-ing. made mi pekchek wif her. okes. den went down le, saw ahma eating le. relieved. den a while den dex and cass went up 1st. i sorta waited for them to makan finish den went up tgt. sat in between of de tallies. lols. lent my shoe to wendy during de worship cos of some prb dat happened to her's was shoeless for a while. a while nia lahs. got it bak soon. aft lesson saw de points. region D was last. boooooooosss~ but grats to B for being 1st. REGION D MUZ JAYOU :) aft service, xuan kept chui-ing mi so dint rrly fellow much. went to 848 to makan. taima called mi to tell mi dat de nxt day den wendy return mi $. told her donnid.i treat her. den she insisted. i insisted oso. lols. in de end she hung up a lil shen qi-ly say if i don take $ , den don call her taima :X so jue hors. went home aft makan, parents rm had new tv:) to takeover de old and pathetic de.
sat woke up le den prepared to go makan. had cheese fries. went to church. juz nice at 1.45. went onto de bus dat brought us to scgs. was sian on de way dere. reached le played a while. RAINed agn. so went up to de hall intending to see de poison ball. but den pastor came to ask mi go down to play rounders, it was lyk rainin. but oh well. was dam kan cheong lahs,. dam long nvr play le lohs. i managed to make it 2 tyms bak to the base:) though in de end lost by 10 points:(( but okes la. not region D's day. went up to see de poison ball. went up den lost le. taima still as dao okes. she wanted mi to take de $ mi dowan. she kept saying regionD ppl are rich:/ went to de toilet dere to rest a while. fellowshiped dere a while. ice is farnie lahs. LOL. and poor xuan. no elaboration given. played 1 game nia. den soon went up de bus. ahma was emo-ing since de "toilet fellow" den laoma dey all soon went to pei ahma emo. leaving mi and jasmine[?] inno:X ahma was scary when she was emo, so kajiaoed taima. causing her to be un-emo ahma oso soon okes le. ice was slpy lar. leaving laoma. soon okes oso. hahas was fun kajiao-ing taima. messed up her hair and others wif de hlp of jasmine. lols. den aft reaching, went to np wif ice and laoma. den dey kept wanting to sort of pei mi to find my parents. dint want. so sorta go and find them quikly. den asked dem to go makan. saw dem agn. go kajiao last tym b4 leaving.
went hm to bathe den went to bugis wif ling jie. met her fren. skip.>> saw adriano. he looked paikia l0hs:XX den ling's fren [xufeng]? said if we went earlier den cld see all de campus superstar people. ohwell. cnt skip my game wad. went shoppin. wif ling,[xufeng?] and de [situ bi frm yinghuocongdemeng], we went shopping. LOL. a while den [situ bi] went home. den we cont shopping. soon went home. played on de mrt station. den went home. aft sending [xufeng] ling and fetching xuan and long. LOOOONNGG DAAAAAYY
