Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
SAT woke up ler den play com.. went out at 1. met ahma and taima. den pei dem as dey mai dong xi. hahas..ahma kept makin us go up and down de escalator. aft she bought her stuff den we went to LJS to makan. H.S was cancelled due to de rain.. so aft eating we went to de mrt station. stood dere for mani minutes coz cnt decide whr to go. finally decided but wendy called. so went to find her. reached ler.den wendy asked us to play blk catching. LOLx..din wan coz i don lyk catchin and de floor was wet. den we all sat der tokin..LOL.. toked for 3 hrs.. hahas...ern was "proposing" to wendy(kristy). ROFL.and ahma was takin a video of it. ahhahahas..den mi pei ahma to buy bbletea. came bak and sth happened.. so...went tto de carpark.. taima wann find nice cars. so went all de way up..and den down.. came bak.. sat a while longer.. den aft de 2 boiis,ern and cass left, we went to taima hse. was 5 plus.. den played "bingo" ahahahs..i was slow larh.. tsk..aft a while i left wif ahma,... offer tuh send her hm but she down.. humpf..nvm lohx.. so took dad de car to fetch mx oso. den went for de councellin. aft dat den went to makan de wanton mee. hahas..not bad lar.. den went hmXD.. dinthearorratherbelievedanithinXD.noworries