Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
post bout sat barhx. wake up le den soon went our ruh mit hazel. wasn't late kkaies. LOL. met le den went into np to anihow walkwalk. a while more le den went to take804 was chattin on de bus. hahahs.bt weird lehx. its either us or de bus was slow>.< finally reached. kor dey all siitiin at de busstop lerh waitin for jiie? ahhahas.den i told kor when i came out she was still zzZing LOL.den went into church for de air-con. hahas. soon more and more ppl came. ahma and baylap oso came. sat tgt and chatted. hazel was lyk blur blur. >.<..lolx? den ahma gave mi and peizhuang a lollipop ahhahahs.i dono y she gib mi oso. soon de bus came. went on. laoma sat in front of mi hazel beside mi bayblp on de sit on de ryte. ahma behind bayblpthroughout de trip ahma and bayblp v quiet sia. lolx.den i tot dey chaojia. coz dey norm v noisy der>.< den laoma said de ones on de left side of de bus if hsppi der den de ones on de ryte is de emo de. LOL.btw laoma gave mi a pic of squirtle. de size of her palm. hahas.quite cute lar.juz dat its small. den she say small den cute..can use as bkmark smre fine lohx. lolx..reach ler.asked jess but she say team full ler so hazel cnt play. den hazel come fer nth le. so i asked her if she wanna go hm not. she said ok lo since de haze is gettin worse and her eye pain so i walked her to de overhead bridge . kind liao lo.i walked half de perimeter to send her dere lop. den walked bak. did somekind of warm up by playin wif de other ppl. a while den a lil sian so went to find ayblp and laoma. dey lyk lookin for sth. den dey say wad dey lookin for kapo for ahma. aiya long story larhx. i went to find wif dem oso lar. den bayblp v farnie. she was lyk sayin:kapo whr u?come out lehx.i play wif u a while den let u go free ler.i onli wanna use u to scare ppl nia.will let u go free aft dat der. LOL.den i told her:u say until lyk dat it will come out mehx? but in de end dey were shouttin la. dey found 1 tiny der. but no one dare to catch>.< laoma was screamin for plastic bag. hahs.den alex came tuh de rescue. he caught it den laoma went to get de plastic bag. so in de end i oso dono wad happened to de frog lar. but i noe i hab alot of msquito bites lar>.< played on all de games. lost by a lil. sianz.tiz tym cham ler>.< nvm.bobiian oso. aft de games ended and de bus left,mi and sis and JL went to de bus stop outside to wait for my mum. waited till de bus reached yishun le she still haben come yet. waited for half an hr lyk dat bahx.. finally she came den sittin on de taxi we went to de tanglinshoppingcentre. go see de uncle casey/pastor casey. for wad family counsellin or rather..aiya to kniw our family betta de lar. sth lyk dat de.mi and my sis took turns to go in and i was de 1st one. so went in lop.sat on de nice nice chair. den he started askin Q's. so i ans lo. aft he was done wif askin den asked my sis in oso. asked a few Q oso den he did hypnosis on mi. LOL.was farnie lar.i nearly fell aslp lorhx.>.< den i okay le den my sis de turn. we exchanged chairs, and she started. i was lyk sian sian sittin dere. it wasn't long b4 i fell aslp>.< heyx.i was tired okes.. i woke up le den saw mum standin in front of mi.. den realised dat evt was over lerhx. hahas.so went out of de rm.den uncle casey say wad wan us to hlp him for him class tomolo coz dey hab practical den nid 'models' den wad wan us to hlp den will hab $20 each LOL.my 1st job.hehes.so acc lo. gd offer wad.so dere to slp for 2 1/2 hrs den can get $20 ler. hab snasks somemore. HAHAs. had diinner b4 goin hm. hehes.1st tym kena hypnotised sia=) was fun!
