Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
last day orb sch.. went to sch as usual. saw hazel.lolx. was cleanin up de class for an hr. saw ahmea playin wif de blu tack so go kop some frm her to play oso>.< ahmea was lyk makin la1 mian4. LOL.soon dono why alot ppl playin oso kop my blu tack oso.. bleahx.. den was prizegibin was sian lohx.. den recess. ky ate wif us. was lyk rarely she feel hungry durin recess der lohx. LOL. den went to hall wif ky to see.. cnt say>.< [to ky:he not **** lohx.dono wads ur defi of ****] bleahx..>.< was playin wif de blu tack lohx. hahas..not onli mi okes. ahgong oso..hehes.. aft it finally over, we went a long way to clear locker. had a hell lot of things to clr lohx. was lyk so pathetic.. ahbian worse. ahhahahs..took bus to de mrt station and went to NP ate at mac wif kiven. heys he was de onli guy wif 4 gals okes..XP den called auntie to come and carry de load of bks hm 1st. went to suhui hse. played majong!. lolx.dint play $ la. hahas. was losin in de beginnin but won lata>.< LOL..alot of farnie things happened lo. alot of gross things oso. den all of us very high.lolx. played till tired le den watched tv tgt. v nice la de feelin..ahhahahs. ohya de lift.. omg..scary la.. lol..i dowan to say it so detailed here.>.<. den on de bus hm said some stuff bout ghosts.. went hm soon.=) goin bak to sch for remedial and filmin durin de holis lo and hab 3 set of chi hw oso..