Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
woke up den went to sch to do de filmin too bad steph sick. notz den we finish de whole clip le actu wan put on YOUTUBE de. but den din coz too violent.>.< is he ownself saddistic. HAHAS.
was quite satisfied wif de video hehex.
den aft went hm and slp. den 5 plus kena woke up by a call. sae wan mit b4 go church and wear de triple cert tee. so wear lo. was dere early.
okes.fast forward>> so i was de 339. on de sticker say de la. oso dono for wad de. became a nannu durin de thin. de lil boii kept wantin to go toilet. hahas.too bod i not boy or rather THANK GOD i not boii so de solo boii closest to him had to do de job. hahas.>.<.
finally aft service. coz de boii wan drink water. den went to queue fer food. long story den. aft,de boii wan find huixin but cant. so i called her. den she say she at de 1st story. go all of us went down. den pass de kids bak to her.
fellowshiped a while. decided to go tuh nicole's hse de nxt day. hahas. i mitin wanyan. btw
