Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
yest church was fun...farnie bahx..start frm beginnin..
aft mittin clar,went to her hse..*for info..she was late agin..zzZ*den watched tv den dey ate..hab offer mi la..but lyk weird weird..so din eat..hehex..aft actu wan go outreach den was late den clar sae self-outreach lo..den i was lyk..O.o okes..sho went down..she say wan buy bubble tea..den sae wan treat mi..hehez..rejected..coz dono y other den my parents or sis,pple treat mi makan den lyk weird weird de lo..dono y lehx..bad habit..hehex..makes mi poorer by ALOT..hahas..*k..come bak>.<*den buy le den cont walkin..den reach de play grd near choo chye hse downstairs dere..den she look look look..say wad find pple she noe..in de end don hab..den 4gt bout it lo..waled towards church since tym goin be up liaox oso..den was walkin through de coffee shop den she wan buy things to makan..den i was lyk...ms..u juz ate horhx?den so fast hungry?!..she was lyk humph..hehes..
den durin de service it was lyk sho cold..suddenly..nxt tym muz bring jacket..hehes...was lyk kip on goin to de toilet to use de hand dryer..hehes..pastor chui and pastor dale was lyk sharin on desires and finance respectively..den when pastor chui part came she was lyk sayin all de shuld-be-nc16 de stuff..den suddenly will be lyk quiet..den she will lyk..u all noe wad im tokin about ryte..im being open here..y all hab de inno face......HAHAS..den we will laugh den when she say again den we quiet again..hehex..so cute nehx..it endedlate..den aft went to eat at KFC..went past mac and saw joyce..pri sch de..waved..hehex..
todae was H.S..dint feel lyk goin but since in de team and told someone goin le den go lo..was lyk callin WanYan4 lyk hundreds of tym..jkjkbbut is lyk mani lo..den finally call mi bak at round 11+am .. sae she gibbin tuition..O.o den sae okes lo goin..i was lyk ..mit? den she sae okes..in de end we ended de conversation by agreein dat she call mi 15mins b4 goin den mit at NP..den aft a lil while,she smsed mi say wad she cant go le coz nid pei mama..den bo bian lohx..she wan be guaii kia wad can i do? so in de end round 1-35pm went out ..cayght de train..got on de bus oso..den half way saw bry..well okes..is he see mi..den alighted at church dere..saw weixiang and norvin..humph..dey dao mi..den i went over to de other bench to sit den wan play wif my PSP..den dey came ove..so realistic..Zzz..den lend dem lo..i sho kindden a while den others came..eg guan jie,dong qi dey all..den de small bus came..pastor qwek asked us to sit..but we pple too mani..so waited 4 de big one..chat wif lee yin fer a while..sat wif her on de bus..hehex..i was lyk busy lendin phones..hehex..den reached..i tink lee yin mus b lyk bored out by mi..hehex..paiseh..watch de soccer..it was a walk over coz de marlins not enough pple..den toopid wei xiang n norvin was lyk pissin mi off..den soon de match ended..den left too see de bball lo..leeyin sae cant get it*not herslf todae..*..looks lyk playin capt ball.hahas..den de guys...wei xiang dey all..dey lyk suroundin us playin wif ice la..den leeyin v inno..den i hlp her lo..*we were siitin on de floor*den leeyin kena bully by almond..den i stood up den sortta chase dem away?den dey toopid de spray water on mi..nvm will get my revenge nxt wk..wif jie..mwahahaha..got even more pissed off den..cooled down liaox den went bak to see de match..lent leeyin my PSP..she play until v farnie..even jessica laughed..leeyin had to lend her shoe to jasmin coz de 2 of us dint intend to play..she v bu shuang on dat..hahas.. de atmozphere was lyk v tense lop..since de start coz christine not happi wif kristy..vice versa..den very fierce lo de game..see liao oso scared..last 10mins i was subbed in..was lyk useless la..zzZ..felt sho mei you yong..hehz..nvm..soon it ended..DELTA WON..woohoo..lolx..
lata in de bus bak,i played my PSP again..hehex..share wif leeyin la..took turnx..den aft leeyin asked mi wan go eaat tgt b4 go hm..i was lyk..hm.. suibian lohx..den a while den she was lyk...orhx..nvm de la..go tgt..den okes lo..went to NP..couldnt decide whr to eat..so go kopitiam 1st lo..was lookin 4 a spot..den finally found 1 but gave to an uncle behind us..since he bought his food le...den in de end went to Mac to eat.. leeyin n i went to buy 1st..den i ordered wrongly..hehe..nvm..den went bak..den he go buy..came bak den we ate..dey eat fast seh..i buy fries n coke nia still eat slowest.>.<..nvm..dint bother..den we went to take neos..hehes..very farnie..coz not used ma..takin tgt..den de post all de same..hehes..if ah bian see de neos sure sae sth de..*kip it awae..mwahahas* when came to deco tym..leeyin went siao again..was lyk..shuld i wryte tis..but lyk so bad lehx..hahas..don care.....in de end still okes lop..den aft cuttin den she was lyk..HAHAS..FINALLY HAB STH TO SHOW TO MY FRENS..we were lyk O.o??aft we say when go hm..den decide to leave at 8pm..den leeyin went ot look 4 a long white sleeve shirt 4 S.C invest..went ard to ask..finally found den din want..sae too ex 4 a 1 tym use..fine..hehes..sae will borrow frm somebody..soon 8 le..at 1st sae wan take bus..den decided dat dey wan walk hm(?!)..so i took mrt lo.. reached hm liaox use com..msn a while den go bathe..den play com again..den choing tix post..gtg liaox..hehex..
