Sometimes i sit at home
and wonder how it be
if he had loved me truely loved me yes,
i learned a while ago
that kind of thing it never happens for me,
and so i go around and just pretend love is not for me
i play the circus clown around my friends
make them laugh and they wont see
that u never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
Lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la, lalala,
la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la laLaaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone
hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i realize dreams come true
arent for girls like me not like me,
and so i go around with my head up
like it aint no thing
and when the boys around with all my friends
im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep,
lord knows its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up
put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...
on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do)
sometimes its hard to (face the truth)
its not the life that i would choose
but what else can i do if he dont love me no
if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face
and if anyone ask me everything is ok
im laughing cuz no one
knows the joke is on me
cuz im dyin inside with my pride
and a smile on my face...on my face singing,
la la la, la la,
lalala, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la, la la la
hm..lata is heart.sport...though i not involved but im goin..to see JL and agnes play lo..captains ball..lolx...though we din do well last week,but tis week muz do betta..don waste clar and my saliva..>.<..
last wk went oso..but was late..reached church dat tym,bus left le..saw paster casey..kind soul seh he..bringin us dere cause we late..he din expect de 4 of us..den got two more ppl oso waitin 4 transport wich is paster casey de car..so altogether is 6 ppl not includin paster casey.. waited 4 him 4 a while coz he got sth on..when he come out he asked how we goin to sit....we din ans..den mx asked de fattest will sit in front ryte..denpaster casey said nth and took out de baby chair..den mx said dat she was de fattest..=.=..evil sae man..nxt tym if we had dat chance again,i would sae im de fattest..XD
so in went all of us..mx sittin in frot..sly wae.wif agnes on de lft den mi den ..alex de meix den her fren...by dat tym it was already full..den paster said to sit 1 infront and one ast de bak..we did dat but still no place 4 JL to sit..so agnes offered tat i sit on her leg..den i say don wan..den said dat she sit on mine..so de journey was lyk long...and warm..and i was sittin at de corner??..den stuffy oso..
